A piece of Humble Pie

The past few days I have had a lot of time to reflect on my life. Where I have been, where I am now and where I am going. That's when I realized I need to eat a big piece of humble pie. I have been having a pity me party for the past week or so and have spent many hours crying and being a complete hag to my husband. On Saturday night that all came to an end when Christian opened up my eyes to how truly blessed I was. For the past few days all I could think about was how much weight I still need to lose or how ugly my hair looks and how I don't feel like I have any friends, blah blah blah, the list goes on and on. What I didn't realize is that I have all I could ever ask for right in front of my eyes. I have an AMAZING husband who would do ANYTHING for me, I have a beautiful little girl who makes me smile all day long, I have a roof over my head, food on the table, but most importantly I have the gospel. All those things that I have been worrying about for weeks will mean nothing in the life after. But what will matter is my family and the gospel. I just recently received a calling in the young women to serve as a personal progress assistant. To be completely honest I was NOT excited about it at all because 1. I hated young women's when I was of that age and 2. I loathed having to do personal progress. After much thought and prayer I realize this is probably a blessing in disguise. This is the perfect calling for me. I will have the opportunity to forget about myself and what I think my needs are and I will get to focus on helping other people gain a testimony and achieve something I didn't get to. In all reality this calling is probably more for my own sake than it is for the girls. I'm in a rut that I need to get out of and quick. So with that piece of humble pie in my mouth I gladly accept this calling and I am going to step up to the plate and do all that I need to for my calling and then I will also step up to the plate to be a better person at home. Christian and Kylee deserve the best and only the best. Life really isn't all that bad. Too bad it took a few weeks of crying and being a serious grouch to figure it out. Good thing the humble pie is available to anyone at anytime and any place if you are willing to accept it.